Others Day

(You can see how beautiful my mom is… and that she put up with my nonsense. I’m not even sure what I’m doing here, but I’m sure it’s nonsense.)

so yeah
my mom
passed
away
in february
i was there for her last weeks
her last breaths
she was in a lot of pain
and discomfort
she needed oxygen
and a wheelchair
rest
and peace
we should have got nurses
sooner
it was a hard time
a very hard time

she didn’t know it then
i didn’t know it then
but my mom taught me
about
death
that is was necessary
that it happens
and there’s nothing you can do
your time
simply runs
out

but i can’t shake the last weeks
of my mom
dying
i can’t shake what i saw
and felt
it’s burned into my brain
marked on the insides of my skull
like soot
it’s what i think about at night
before i fall asleep
and when i’m driving in my car
alone